Thinking in Poetry

I wish to remark an alarming incidence, the cause of which I'm not
complete aware. Ten years ago I was occasion to a dreadful shock; an
accident which left me paralyzed. I went through nightmares far too
tedious to relate, though there are some times when I can feel them
still. In any event the point of which I wish to share, is this:
sometimes (not always) but ne'ertheless quite oft, I cannot shake the
rhythm from my thought - It is as if I'm doing the thing I ought.
Though there are times when I quite curse it (as I should); on other
occasions it pleases me quite well. A gift from heaven or (perhaps)
from ... somewhere quite not so altogether congenial - a habit
repremedial of a crime iridriddemial in the next hypothesiamial of
the fundamental nexus in the turbulent morphorthemial; in the higher
gyre of what should be is done. The reason not quite clear to me, the
probable eludes me, though the possible evokes it and the
pointlessness provokes it; and the drive is always there, though from
whence I know not where; and the way it is is layed out bare for me.
To see.
Hypothesis: think not in verse for it will ruin you, and the
jangling crowd won't mourn you; and the swinging judge won't spare
you; and the the ultimate will wait with rasping rubbing hands for
you, to come.
Indeed.


POINT OF INTEREST:
An elephant falling from 20 meters hits the ground with an almost
exact equivalence of emphasis as a thousand pints of mild-mellowed
yellow mead thrown into the thousand wizened faces of a thousand aged
gurus with a thousand profound depths of orientation; and the thousand
startled expressions, and the thousand dripping whiskers, and the
thousand brisk expostulations, and the thousand soft and o so very
necessary elucidations and the thousand humble explanations all add
up to one.
- less a ripple of eyelash and a gentle shaving of ivory.


O so so so sorry to waste your precious time - just having fun.
etc


Grantland

Waxing Gibbous

The Moon

The Moon is feminine - you are quite right
She's looking just so cool and beautiful tonight.
You look quite hard, you see the knowing spirit;
The glowing spirit
A thing quite cold and sharp; but righteous:

A clean and pure embodiment of light.

The Moon is asking us to be
With Her:
She's lonely, and she hopes to have a mate
She watches, and she sorrows; and she waits.

Where are those valiant spirits?

Where are are those gentle Men?
The Questers and the Seekers:
The searchers for the truth?
Where are the Men of yesteryear:
-Those knights in shining armour;
Those emissaries of light
The crisp and clear and shining dance

Of horses white?

The moon is waiting patiently for us
She's waited now for o so very long
She lives the now - and she is waiting still
Let's seperate ourselves from ourselves

And go to the moon.

Lion Test

TESTING LION

Thanks Jeff!

I shall not be insincere.

I shall not be insincere.
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I shall not be insincere.
I shall not be insincere.
I shall not be insincere.
I shall not be insincere.

No matter how pragmatic it might be.

Grantland

Who's Crazy?

A Question of Sanity by Dr. William Pierce


http://www.natvan.com/internet-radio/ts/071302.pls

People with Politically Incorrect beliefs often get told that they are crazy. How does one tell if an individual is crazy or if society is crazy?

Dr. Pierce also discusses some of the favorite propaganda lines of egalitarians, such as: "There is no such thing as a pure race" and "There is more variation within any given race than there is between races."

It's the Jews, stupid.

http://pcapostate.blogspot.com/2006/06/its-jews-stupid.html

CITIZOID!

CITIZOID!
>...an appalling sad proclivity for unison required.

Feet of Clay

Feet of Clay
And a (legs) therof
And a torso
And a chest.

!CITIZOID!

"I look to approval when they ask me what to think
I keep my mind in safe and neutral gear!"
"I over-oil my joints
And anaethetize my points
Think of nothing
that might count too late this year..."

I am a Citizoid!

[chorus]
Citizoid ... Citizoid
A Citizoid.
He's a Citizoid!

When someone says my name ..
Why it helps to still the pain
And until it comes again
I remember it.

[remembers it
He 'remembers' it] --

"I Remember it."

Obstructing tide and time and title
To the endless Cosmic cycle
In the pointless churn of pointlessness
To the ultimate Denial of Reality!
The Innocuous, so shiny surface-fair....
So 'it is so' so right.
The 'Reasonable Assumption' made
The 'Necessary Force'
To the 'Just Consideration' to
To the Futile Altercation
To ..
That ultimate PARADOX!....
A goal-oriented Society
Without Goals...

[chorus]
Citizoids!
Citizoids ..
For they are Citizoids!

>Cut to
Grey back-background scene, of i-den-den dentically
attired coalblack sweating labourers of conspicuously similar
appearence swinging weary sim-simultaneous pickaxes in unison
required.

[Chorus]

'Ree-kwùyyyyyyyyy-yerd'

(HIGH PITCH,BRISK)In Unison Required!

Required o yes indeedy-deed ...In Unison Required!

Quotes from AMREN

Whether it’s the appalling hospitals in King-Harbor or Zimbabwe, or the gangs being shooed away with classical music in Tacoma, or the last supermarket pulling up stakes and fleeing Detroit, or a prison watch guard tower being required in the middle of downtown Harlem, there is always one commonality in each story: When Whites leave and Blacks take over, chaos always ensues. Every meaningful metric in existence supports that axiom.
Posted by at 5:16 AM on August 3

Now, now, boys and girls! This is partly the white man’s fault. The whites who brought white techonology and white institutions to Rhodesia/Zimbabwe caused a great increase in the black population. The blacks have now chosen to revert to black technology and black institutions. It appears that many of them were unaware that the reversion would entail great suffering and a sharp decline in their population. The moral of the story is that it’s foolish, even harmful, to impose white institutions upon non-whites.
An obvious corollary is that it’s extremely foolish to admit non-whites to a white country. The geniuses who run our country, however, will now import many of these poor Zimbabwean blacks to America as refugees. In the near future, when non-whites have become a majority of our population, America will strongly resemble Zimbabwe. This story should inspire fear rather than gloating.
Posted by Gringo_Malo at 10:29 AM on August 3

The Club

The Club by Dr. William Pierce Broadcast Date: 12-15-2001

http://www.natvan.com/internet-radio/ts/121501.pls

Members of "The Club" want to bring the whole White world more and more tightly under their control. They want to eliminate every challenge and every potential challenge to their rule. They want to stamp out every influence and every idea that might become a danger to them, and that includes every nationalism and every religion that they haven't already infiltrated and corrupted. To this end they have been working to break down all national borders, pollute all ethnically clean populations with a flood of non-White immigrants, wipe out all sense of racial identity or loyalty, erase the memory of all traditions and all history, and undermine discipline and morality.

Tradition

When evening falls upon the shore
You smell the salt, and hear the roar
Of surf that breaks in spumes against the reef .
The sun is low, the breeze is cool
The waters hiss, the seagulls call,
The sand is gritty, warm and soft beneath your feet.

You draw a breath, and close your eyes
And raise your face and clench your teeth
And feel your spirit spread its golden wings and soar

How good is calm
The calm of peace
How good is life -
The all in all

And yet you know, one day
A storm will come and sweep it all away.

The White Farmers of Zimbabwe

The White Farmers of Zimbabwe
by Dr. William PierceBroadcast Date: 12-06-1997

http://www.natvan.com/internet-radio/ts/120697.pls

Zimbabwe used to be Rhodesia when it was a White-ruled country. It fell to Black rule for much the same reasons South Africa did: Under the influence of Christian churches and the Jewish dominated media, Whites became convinced that their presence was immoral.
Many Whites left after the country was turned over to the Blacks, but some stayed on. They were determined to do the best they could to get along with the new Black government. Many of these Whites were farmers who built their farms from scratch out of the wilderness. They were reluctant to give up their lives work.
Whites own half of the good farmland in Zimbabwe, but it is far more productive than the half owned by Blacks. Now much of the farmland owned by Whites is scheduled to be confiscated without compensation and turned over to Blacks. Some media reports have lamented that this is as likely to be disastrous for the Blacks of Zimbabwe, but very few have pointed out the injustice to the Whites.
But even so, what did the Whites expect? It is impossible for Whites to live happy, productive lives under Black rule.

Disclaimer

I don't "understand" my enemy, who is doing his devilish best to destroy me and mine; I HATE my enemy. I want to kill my enemy; I want to chop his fucking head off and take a good long shit down his gaping neck. I want to smash his head to a paste and then urinate on it.I know well (though I cannot understand it) that others who have identified the enemy, consider me "extreme" or crazy or "evil", because all they want is to be left alone. They don't "hate" anyone; they just would like the enemy to please stop trying to destroy them, and if they resist, why gosh, they're just defending themselves. And that's how everybody thinks, apparently. As I said, I can't understand it.So when I see what the enemy is doing and has done to me and mine, and I rage in furious hatred of my hated enemy, that's just me raging ok? I don't speak for anybody else at all, even though I may laud and applaud them as fellow fighters. Perhaps I'm a berzerker, and they are not.

That's all.

Here comes the Great Depression II

There's a tension in the air, but the markets don't yet smell it. Mortgage-backed securities are soon to be marked to market, and hedge-funds will be going belly up. Then banks. Foreclosures are just starting to cascade, and they'll get worse. It's coming, and soon.

Let's not Blame the Jews

Yes, let us not blame the Jews for the crimes of the evil Zionists. Let us not blame the Jews for the lies of the Jewsh media and the filth and poison vomited out by Jewish Hollywood. Not all Jews are Zionists or media moguls or moviemakers.

And let us not blame the Jews for the hideous evil of Communism which they used to enslave our Eastern European people, and systematically murder tens of millions of our best and brightest, following the dictates of their satanic Talmud. Let us not blame all the Jews for the feminism
that has made enemies of our women and crashed our birthrate, nor for the rampant pornography industry which they control and which debases our women in all eyes. Not all Jews are feminist instigators like Betty Friedan or Gloria Steinem or Bella Abzug.

The child porn market and the white slave trade might be dominated by Jews, as is the Russian mafia or organizatsia.. but not all Jews are involved. Let us, furthermore, not ascribe to all Jews the evil of the Illuminati or the machinations of the Federal Reserve Bank, which they own.

Boazian anthropology, (denying race differences) amd affirmative action which has so damaged race relations, is totally Jewish, as is the whole sick, life-killing illness of liberalism, Political Correctness and the homosexual agenda. But not all Jews are culpable. Third world mmigration, for which organized Jewish groups are principally responsible, is still pushed relentlessly by AIPAC and the like, as is the pressure to keep the borders open to illegal mestizo swarms, but not every Jew is a member of AIPAC, or the SPLC, or B'nai Brith.

Not every Jew is a neocon warmonger, or a crooked shyster lawyer or an ecstasy peddler. Not every Jew shoots Palestinian children or assassinates intellectuals or stages false flag attack to start wars. Many Jews are not involved in financial criminality like Ivan Boesky or Eric Stein or Michael Milken. Others in no way teach our children at school to hate themselves, or encourage them to misceginate with "cool" rap singers and baskeyball stars.

There are no doubt Jews who do not denigrate Christianity or Christmas, or do not despise "goyim" and "shiksas" and believe that we are cattle destined to serve the Chosen, as is written in their Talmud.

Let's not blame the Jews as a lethal vermin pest that is deadly to us as a people, in their COLLECTIVE. Certainly not! That would be "anti-semitic".

A Baboon Level of Intelligence

Government shuts down private slaughterhouses in prices crackdown in Zimbabwe

International Herald TribuneThe Associated PressPublished: July 11, 2007HARARE, Zimbabwe:

The government withdrew the licenses of all private slaughterhouses Wednesday, accusing them of defying orders to reduce meat prices by 50 percent in the state's attempts to rein in rampant inflation.Industry Minister Obert Mpofu said the Cold Storage Company, part owned by the government, was given sole responsibility for slaughtering livestock, state radio reported.Private abattoirs dotted around the country served small-scale local pig and cattle producers unable to transport livestock to Cold Storage Company facilities in regional centers. Their closure was expected to worsen already severe meat shortages."Abattoirs were granted licenses to provide a service to the public which they are no longer providing," Mpofu said.Some had stopped buying animals from local producers, he said.But in an earlier statement, the Cold Storage Company reported its production was down because farmers were reluctant to sell livestock at prices reduced by at least half ordered in a government June 26 edict affecting all goods.Farmers said CSC buyers offered as little as 3 million Zimbabwe dollars - which at the official exchange rate is worth US$200 (?147), but at dominant black-market rates is worth US$25 (?18) - for cattle valued at up to 12 million Zimbabwe dollars a head (US$800; ?588 at official rates; US$92; ?68 at black-market rates) used for meat packs known as "economy beef."Bigger reductions were demanded on pedigree beef cattle."They are telling me I'm worth a huge amount less than I thought I was worth. Hard work, feedstock problems and everything else, I am insulted," one farmer said.He said he was told it was his "national duty" to sell his livestock. He asked not to be identified for fear of incrimination. "They must think I'm crazy."Police and government inspectors continued to arrest traders and businessmen accused of selling goods at above stipulated prices.At least five second-hand car dealers joined scores of executives and company directors arrested since Friday. Most have been released after being fined both as individuals in their private capacity with their companies also paying penalties.State radio said Wednesday a senior magistrate in the second city of Bulawayo warned businesses that courts would impose jail terms for offenders and profiteers who could easily afford fines.Shelves in stores across the country remained bare of cornmeal, bread, meat and other staples.Factories, stores and gas stations were unable to replace materials sold at below the original cost since June 26. The sudden drop in prices has sparked panic buying, stampedes and near-riots by impoverished Zimbabweans.In Harare, gasoline shortages worsened and commuter bus operators ignored orders to slash their fares and abandoned some routes. But as the cold winter dusk fell, buses cruised past crowded downtown bus stops demanding fares even higher than those before the price cuts from commuters who managed to get to work and were anxious to go home to the capital's satellite townships."Don't pay, don't go," said a fares tout, speaking in the local Shona language and keeping a watchful eye for police.Mpofu said the government would cancel the licenses of bus owners flouting its rules on fares. Gasoline, subsidized to half the importation cost, was being made available to transporters, he said.Police said Monday more than 1,300 businesses were charged and fined over the previous two weeks for defying orders to slash prices in half or hoarding goods. Police spokesman Oliver Mandipaka said the crackdown was "not a gimmick and will be sustained at all costs to stop consumers being ripped off."Official inflation is running at 4,500 percent, the highest in the world, though independent financial institutions estimate real inflation is closer to 9,000 percent.The government accuses business leaders of being part of a political and economic campaign of "regime change" to bring down longtime ruler President Robert Mugabe.

Race Suicide

http://www.natvan.com/internet-radio/ts/122300.pls

Dr. Pierce gives a superb, concise history of the misfortunes that have befallen the White race during the 20th century

Race and Slavery

http://www.natvan.com/internet-radio/ts/100497.pls

Slavery is still thriving in Africa, just as it was before Whites ever used Black slaves and just as it was after all White countries outlawed slavery. Why do you rarely hear about it? Because it doesn't fit the world view the controllers of the media want you to have.
Even people who think independently and don't just accept the views presented by the media sometimes don't speak out. This may be because they are more successful than average and more considered about appearing to be rude. Secondly, it may be because these people value social tranquillity in the present so much they do not look too hard at the future. Thirdly, many people think it is wrong to identify and take in to account group differences. They feel everyone should be treated as an individual.

Ek wens ek was 'n Boer

Ja, ek wens ek was 'n Boer

What an easier road it would be. Nevertheless. Que sera, sera.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mZsPa-PwJ8o

Ecclesiastes

Ecclesiastes

For everything there is a season,
And a time for every matter under heaven:
A time to be born, and a time to die;
A time to plant, and a time to pluck up what is planted;
A time to kill, and a time to heal;
A time to break down, and a time to build up;
A time to weep, and a time to laugh;
A time to mourn, and a time to dance;
A time to throw away stones, and a time to gather stones together;
A time to embrace, And a time to refrain from embracing;
A time to seek, and a time to lose;
A time to keep, and a time to throw away;
A time to tear, and a time to sew;
A time to keep silence, and a time to speak;

A time to love, and a time to hate,
A time for war, and a time for peace.

Ecclesiastes 3:1-8

ENOUGH!!!

'Don't, dad, they're too many'04/07/2007 22:47 - (SA)

http://www.news24.com/News24/South_Africa/News/0,,2-7-1442_2141697,00.html

Pretoria - A grandfather from Brackenfell in the Cape who went to Pretoria especially for his granddaughter's christening has become just another statistic after being gunned down in cold blood by four armed robbers on Tuesday night.
Albertus Taljaard, 63, was shot dead in full view of his son, Derick, 30, at the Wilds, "a security complex within a security complex", east of Pretoria.
His wife Marietjie, 56, their daughter-in-law, Alda, 31, and their grandchildren three-year-old Xander, and Anlia, four months old, were at home during the attack.
Little Anlia was to have been christened on Sunday, but the service has been postponed for her grandfather's funeral.
Derick was in tears as he recounted the anxious moments before the robbers fled with two laptop computers.
Alda and the children were in the main bedroom when the robbers struck.
"Our domestic worker had walked halfway home with a friend. When she returned, the men attacked her in her room outside and took the keys to our back door.
Started tackling the robbers
Derick said: "I saw the men through the dining room windows and shouted at them to go away. The next moment, one of them took out a firearm and pointed it at me.
He dived under a table and broke a small bone in his left shoulder in the process.
Derick ran up the stairs just as his father came down to investigate.
"We went down together. My father pushed me into the study and started tackling the robbers.
"I shouted 'Don't, dad, they're too many for us'. Then one took out his firearm and shot my father in the stomach."
Derick ran to the main bedroom and shut the door.
"We prayed to the Lord to help us, and to help my father."
Alda phoned the emergency number 112 on her cellphone, but "the voice on the other side said I was shouting at her and put the phone down".
She phoned her mother, Alta Pieters, who lives in the same complex. Pieters said she also tried the emergency number again, with no success.
The police emergency number (10111) just rang.
Alta said police arrived an hour later.
Pieters said: "We must leave this country. We can't sit here and wait to be killed."
'My best friend is gone'
Derick said: "My mother has been badly affected. She keeps on saying 'My best friend is gone',"
"Xander keeps on asking : 'Where's my grandpa, when's he coming home from the hospital?' "
"Pappa, what happened?" Xander asked as he began to cry.
Derick could not answer and just stared at the floor as his tears trickled.

What shall we do?

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CADSzKUEpM0

"Kill the men. Kill the women. Kill the babies. We'll kill the blind, we'll kill the cripple, we kill the crazy, we kill the faggots, we kill the lesbians...I say goddammit, we kill them all !""Why kill them all? Why kill the women? First, why kill the babies? They're just little innocent blue-eyed babies? Because God dammit they're going to grow up one day to rule your babies!Kill them now!""Why kill the White women in South Africa? I say kill the women because the women are the military manufacturing centre and every nine months they lay down on their backs, and reinforce their roles out from between their legs, so shut down the military manufacturing centres by killing the White women!"Why kill the older crackers? Old decrepit crackers in South Africa...how the hell do you think they got old? They got old oppressing & killing black people...I say kill a gugga gugga (stupid nigger monkey at this point loses his diction) agga guuga...kill the faggots, kill the lesbians, and after you've killed them all, I say that day about Mandela will let you know what he really knows about me he don't know a damned thing, I say you go to the goddamned graves, and dig them up, and kill them a goddamned 'gain 'cause they didn't die hard enough!And if you don't have the strength to dig 'em up after you've done all that work, just go to the grave and shoot in the damn grave, kill 'em again, because they didn't die hard enough!

Time for War

http://www.citizen.co.za/index/article.aspx?pDesc=42418,1,22

Most land to go to blacks

CITIZEN REPORTER

JOHANNESBURG – Government will not rest until most of the land is in the hands of black owners.
This is according to Minister of Agriculture and Land Affairs Lulu Xingwana, who was reacting to recent parliamentary questions.
“Land reform remains a constitutional mandate,” she said.
“Once all the restitution claims have been settled and the redistribution target of 30% has been met, there will still be a need to improve on the ratio of 70% of agricultural land owned by whites and 30% by blacks, until land ownership in the country reflects its demographics in terms of race and gender.”
There might also be a need to examine the extent to which land is equitably distributed to address the needs of the most needy – irrespective of race, she said.
“In addition, the Department of Land Affairs will have to continue to ensure the security of tenure of land rights, especially with regard to the rights of persons or communities living on commercial farmland and communal areas in the former homelands and South African Development Trust areas.
But DA spokesman on land affairs, Maans Nel, believes the Minister’s calculations are “not a true reflection of reality”.
“The Minister forgets that 18 million hectares of land are already owned by black people in South Africa,” he said yesterday.
“This land is owned communally in the former homelands, as well as by the South African Development Trust.
“If the 30% target is reached by 2014, thereby placing 25 million hectares of land in the hands of black owners, the correct total percentages will be that 43% of land will be owned by black people, while 57% will be in white hands.”
“It is furthermore worrying that government’s land reform attempts do not necessarily focus on enhancing the productive capacity of the land.
“Food security is currently ensured by our commercial farmers and land reform should never be carried out in a manner that compromises that security,” he said.
He also warned that hampered food production would firstly harm the most vulnerable of South Africans, including those whom land reform was aimed at empowering.

Biopolitics

Biopolitics by Dr. William Pierce

http://www.natvan.com/internet-radio/ts/120200.pls

Dr. Pierce discusses the bankruptcy of the current political system. We have political leaders who are afraid to provide real leadership and, in fact, have no interest in providing real leadership. Getting elected, not policy or principle, becomes the only goal and the country drifts in whatever direction the behind-the-scenes manipulators of public opinion want it to go. In addition, because of the biological nature of the political problem we face, we cannot save ourselves through party politics or the electoral process.

The Corrupters

The Corrupters by Dr. William Pierce

http://www.natvan.com/internet-radio/ts/102100.pls

Dr. Pierce says, "we cannot blame the Jews for the fact that we have many fools and many knaves among our own people, and we cannot blame them for the fact that we have a system of government which is so susceptible to corruption: a system in which fools are allowed to vote and knaves are allowed to hold office. So this weakness, this susceptibility to manipulation and corruption, was inherent in us even without the intervention of the Jews. But you know, the Jews have an amazing talent for sniffing out weaknesses in others and then figuring how to turn those weaknesses to their own advantage."

Our Children! Our Children!

Conditioning for Death by Dr. William Pierce

http://www.natvan.com/internet-radio/ts/120900.pls

Dr. Pierce discusses America's educational system. He says that it consists not so much of education but of conditioning. This conditioning is aimed at making Politically Correct lemmings out of everyone who passes through the schools: lemmings who will not question or oppose any of the policies of the conditioners. The goal of the schools is to make lemmings who will not put up a fight against those who deliberately are destroying our country, our civilization, and our race.

Bringing down the House

House of Cards

http://www.natvan.com/internet-radio/ts/010100.pls

How to Bring Down the House by Dr. William Pierce

People often write in to the National Alliance saying that they agree with the opinions expressed on American Dissident Voices, but they do not know what to do. Dr. Pierce explains what racially conscious Whites should do when they decide things must change.

Disclaimer

I don't "understand" my enemy, who is doing his devilish best to destroy me and mine; I HATE my enemy. I want to kill my enemy; I want to chop his fucking head off and take a good long shit down his gaping neck. I want to smash his head to a paste and then urinate on it.

I know well (though I cannot understand it) that others who have identified the enemy, consider me "extreme" or crazy or "evil", because all they want is to be left alone. They don't "hate" anyone; they just would like the enemy to please stop trying to destroy them, and if they resist, why gosh, they're just defending themselves. And that's how everybody thinks, apparently. As I said, I can't understand it.

So when I see what the enemy is doing and has done to me and mine, and I rage in furious hatred of my hated enemy, that's just me raging ok? I don't speak for anybody else at all, even though I may laud and applaud them as fellow fighters. Perhaps I'm a bezerker, and they are not.

That's all.

Grantland

The Chinese Invasion by Dr. William Pierce
Broadcast Date: 09-02-2000

Dr. Pierce discusses a theoretical invasion of the United States by Red China and asks how a patriotic American should respond.

http://www.natvan.com/internet-radio/ts/090200.pls

Psychological Advice

>Hello.....My name is Harold James Patrick, and am a current resident of >Grove, Oklahoma. Throughout my life, since I was a little boy, I have shown >an interest in alien abduction and also a big aversion to them as well (if >that makes sense). Now, for a long time I couldn't figure out what this >meant until I was introduced to what they call a grey in some show >somewhere. I believe so anyway. It was about this time I had weird dreams >of being chased too, me and my little brother Ned. I also remember having a >very big fear of my clset in my room. In fact, it got so bad, that I was >afraid to get dressed in my room and had to do it on the balcony of the >stairs outside my room. After a while I became used to the closet though I >became a lot more tense after I adjusted. I had fits of anger and talked >continously of killing myself and said I was insane. After a while, I >became okay once more after I moved away to Tennessee. There, I slowy >became less emotional, yet more paranoid, but only a little. It was about >this time I connected with the info superhighway and soon found myself in >their UFO forum. Soon, I found a test that psychoanalyst people give >abductees and found many things in common with me...such as the closet, my >fits of anger, wanting to kill myself, etc. Still, I wasn't sure (or ready >to accept) that I was abducted. So I made up a lie and said that I had been >abducted eight times and provided a story to each, even though I do not >recall being abducted. The general reaction was either I was looney or >could be sold out. I didn't like either. So, for a long time afterwards, I >shut my mouth, and soon I was living fine, but still on the brink of just >want to break down. After I moved from TN back to OK, I became more jumpy >and cautious. Then the dreams came. The dreams were odd: I was walking in a >jungle like place, when I would see light. I would fall off the edge of a >small cliff (about four feet high) and, upon hitting the ground, see a body >of what appears to be a mangled ape or chimp. Then I woke up. Later, I >think the flash of light is a alien or UFO, but probably an alien. Right >now, I haven't had any dreams, but I still feel edgy. I thought it was >about time I told some people out there this, and maybe they would >understand. I hope some of you will. >Also, I still of an interest in alien abduction. If any of you know someone >or have been abdcuted yourself, I would like it very much if you would >e-mail me at a detailed description of your abduction >and what is happening to you now. Thank you very much.

>Signed, >Harry

Dear Harold,

A complete cure of all of your (very typical) symptoms cannot be guaranteed of course, but we here at Abductees Anonymous have had most encouraging results with a procedure developed at the ICEKNIFE Research Institute of the Paranormal. We find that many of our patients are unable to remember or unwilling to discuss their (usually very pertinent) early childhood neglect/ deprivation experiences without undergoing the therapy, which of course renders it almost impossible to effect a cure.
Do you own a large, shaggy rug that you do not need? If not, do your best to acquire one cheaply from a friend or junkshop. You will also need two (2) rubber nipples from a baby's bottle - these can be cheaply picked up (no bottle needed) from a drugstore. You will also require some epoxy glue, some twine - thirty (30) feet or so should be sufficient - and a pair of sturdy scissors. You neglected to mention whether or not you live in the city - if so, you will possibly need to commute to an area where large rocks and/or tree-stumps can be found. Sometimes one can find them in parks, or at the private home of a wealthy friend (should you have one).
The procedure is very simple indeed. First, using the sturdy scissors, cut two (2) small holes in the shaggy rug, large enough to admit passage of the rubber nipple, yet small enough so that the base of the nipple cannot pass through. These holes should be exactly twelve (12) inches apart, center-to-center. Second, push the nipples through, and doub the nipple-base side of the rug liberally with the epoxy glue. Drape the rug over the suitably-sized boulder or tree-stump that you have found, nipple-base INWARD. Secure with the twine, and wait thirty (30) minutes for the glue to thoroughly set. Undo the twine (you may dispense with it at this point), and give the thing a hug. Give it another. Go on - one more. And another. Think warm thoughts. Think love and happiness. Hug it again. Keep doing this until you feel better.
You may now contact Abductees Anonymous (look in the phonebook) for further therapy at only seventy (70) dollars an hour. We cannot, regrettably, absolutely guarantee a cure, but our success rate has, as I have mentioned, been very encouraging to date.

Cordially yours,

K. Bavianus Kransburger
Secretary, Abductees Anonymous
Africa Division

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